It’s taken me a while to come back to this blog, and if I’m honest I didn’t know that I would.
A month ago, I suffered the greatest loss of my life when my grandmother passed away. I haven’t truly processed the fact that she is gone. She was so young at heart and strong-willed, I thought we had 20 more years together. She was my second mom, my greatest inspiration and one of my most significant role models. I couldn’t have prepared myself for a life without her.
I’m not going to lie, it’s been extremely difficult to find the motivation to get up and start my day these past few weeks. I have an overwhelming feeling of emptiness and loneliness without her. She was my rock and her love and support were unconditional.
It would be much easier to give up on this passion project I started for myself nearly 5 months ago… but I know I would look back on that decision down the road and feel a sense of failure and regret. I started this because it made me happy, I shouldn’t let my sadness consume me and take away something that brings me joy.
I started this for me, and now it’s for her too. One of our last visits with each other, she had me subscribe to my blog for her so she would be notified of a new post. She was my best teacher, she read everything I wrote and always encouraged me to write more because she loved reading my work. I have lived my entire life with the mission to make her proud of me. If she were still here, I know she would encourage me to stick with it.
It will never be easy living without her. I’m going to have many nights where I cry myself to sleep, and that’s okay. Each morning, I will channel her strength to be the best version of myself with the attributes I gained from her and the values she instilled in me.
From this point on, I plan to grow my blog and keep a more consistent posting schedule. I hope to develop more content and expand my creativity with different recipes and start implementing videos. If you haven’t given up on me yet, please forgive my absence and continue to follow me on this journey.